Our Darling Izzy. Always With Us

I am sorry it has taken me a month to write this post but losing Izzy so very suddenly was so heartbreaking and shocking that it has taken me this long to even get close to acceptance . The pack have had problems adjusting to life without their leader who lets be honest was a force to be reckoned with.

On the 6th of November I noticed Izzy had not been solid potty so we gave her foods to help that along with no effect  She was still eating and drinkng well but by Friday when I still had not seen anything I took her to the vet who said her poop shoot was empty but her bladder was extremely full and that she probably had a bladder infection. So he gave her a shot and some antibiotics and we toddled home.

She was bright enough on Saturday during the day but did not pass urine a put a nappy on her overnight so I could tell if she had tinkled or not but overnight she was throwing up and crying a lot she also didn't tinkle.

So around 11.30am when we could see no improvement I phoned our vet hospital who said bring her in, there may a wait though as the vet is about to do emergency surgery. Phoned my friend to ask her to take us as it is a long way and neither of us drive. We got there around one and had a long wait to see the vet.

(These were taken before we left for the hospital)

We saw the vet around 2pm-ish and she wasn't sure what was going on so she wanted to do an ultrasound so would we leave Izzy and collect her later which was obviously fine, when we left she was still perky. 

(The pics below were taken in the waiting room just before we were seen )

Around 5pm I got a call from the vet telling me top get back quickly as Izzy had collapsed. Well as you can imagine I was beside myside wanting to get to her so I called my parents and trhey raced me up to the vet. 

The vet saw me and told me Izzy had collapsed after the ultrasound but it had shown her tummy was full of tumours and fluid. There wasn't really anything they could do but they would try surgery if I wanted them to. Then she went to get Izzy, when she came back with Izzy in her arms and laid her on the table I almost collapsed. My girl could not stand and could not lift her head. My heart just shattered as I knew there was no way I could put her through surgery knowing it probably wouldn't work. I told the vet to get The Bridge injection ready quickly as it was obvious to me that my darling girl had hung on for me to get back to her. She knew I would be a mess if I hadn't been there for her.

I scooped her into my arms holding her close and I put our song on and sand softly to her , told her how lucky I was to have been her Momma, how much I loved her and always would as the vet gave the the injection. I held her so close until the song ended then I laid her in her favourite pink leopard print blankie, tucked her favourite toy hippo in with her. I took a lock of floof, kissed her and told her not to take any guff from her sisfur Ronnii at the Bridge. Kissed her again and gently closed her bad eye. The vet came back in and I said I wanted her to come home again and I left.

I felt so broken but I knew Izzy was tired of being a warrior on Sunday morning as the fight had gone out of her eyes.

I feel blessed we had her for so long as we knew when we adopted her that epi meds can shorten life span and we never expected to hit double digits but my girl was a fighter and made it to 10 years old. Every extra day we got with her were treasured so much.

I cannot express in words how much she is missed

I shall leave you with our song now

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By Momma Tea on behalf and with Uji, Ziggy, Bean and Hiro